Natural Reactions.

The blood pumps
to flush the face and ears
and neck
turn it red
betray the body
For fury
for pain..
The bodys betrayl
the enemies gain.
Eyes will water
and spill over the lids
bite your tounge so as not to scream
so as to be silent
and blend in with the walls
and somehow
the silence betrays you
[are you okay?]
and the tears will spill
and words will be choked on.
All you wanted
was to be left alone
in your greif
[nothings wrong.]

Go away.
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Alone in your room
the silence presses in on you
as you hold it in
and maybe if you
hold it long enough
it will go away
or be compacted
building up inside
like building blocks
for a bomb.
Until
you
explode.

Boom.

My Grandma always told me to turn the light on.

Have you ever looked in the rearview mirror and wondered what you were missing when you left it all behind?
Did you ever wonder if you were trying to push the pull, or walk out the in? Did you ever turn to every station in your car searching for the crackle just so you could hear the sound of your broken mind trying to mend itself? Did you ever cry about a character in a book or a movie, and find in real life you're numb and the tears don't come? That the only place left is fantasy, where anything can happen, where peope forgive and forget and have control over what happens to them?
Did you ever find that when you want to be found, you're lost?
Or when you've been found, and now its too late?
Did you ever wonder what it would be like if it were too late?

Did you?