[Secrets]

I look at the old
wall postings
the old
messages.

A sick feeling churns
in the pit of my stomach.
A guilty,
jealous
monster.

I shouldn't be reading this
[no..]
But i deserve to know!

Dont I...?


I was used.
[you forgave him]
It still hurts.
[only when you look at the past]
He says he loves me
[he does]
You dont deserve him.
[thats a definite.]
He wants to be with me forever
[do you?]
I love him.
[you're lying.]
I know
[so why..?]
I dont know.
[you'll hurt him]
He'll be hurt either way.
[save him a day.]
I should.
[you wont]
I cant.
[you must]
I will.
[when?]

Not today.

(end of conversation.)